Free write

Now that I am at the end of my high school career I feel so relieved. Now that I think about leaving it's so hard to believe that I am about to be in college on my own. I don't think I'm ready yet but reality had to come one of these days. I don't think that I am ready for the workload that I am about to get in college. I'm so used to the amount of work that I am given in tma I don't think that I can handle writing ten page papers or actually studying for test. In high school I always looked over my notes the night before a test for 20 minutes and was able to pass. College students make it seem like they study for a test for a whole month. College will definitely take some getting used to. The school that I am going to is in a very rural environment. It's in a little town that seems has nothing in it. When I visited I didn't see any mall or movie theater. It just seemed really country. I think I could be hard to get comfortable in that kind of setting because I am so used to the city. I'm  used to being able to use public transportation if necessary. It seems like a car Is required at my school. I think being in such a different environment like that will help me to not be distracted while I'm in school and will force me to make friends ( especially those who have cars)

Passion Blog

Now as I am towards the end of my high school career, my passion is to graduate. June 25th could not come any faster. I just need to make sure that I pass English and Economics. I am ready to leave high school and go to college. I hope college is way different then high school. When I say that I mean I want waking up early in the morning for school to be over and I want to be able to take classes that are geared toward my diploma and not have so many unnecessary classes. I think I just need a vacation. Maybe to an island or on a cruise. I want to just enjoy the time that I am going to have from the time I graduate until I have to go back to school in August. I think college should take its sweet time to come. I just need to get away from anything that is school related. I do not think that my brain can handle so much education without any breaks. I do not understand why students have to be in school for so many years to not be guaranteed success. If people work hard to get a diploma from elementary, middle school, high school and college why can't a good job be given to everyone?

Passion for Slayingg Hair

So I had a hard time thinking of a passion to write about because I have so many. I love succeeding, doing makeup, lipsticks, and several other things.But I chose to write about doing hair. I really love love love love doing hair. It makes me so happy to make someone love how they look. I like to do hair because its a girls weakness. I started in about 9th grade. At that time I wasn't that good because I was a beginner and I was just experimenting in Aaliyah & my moms hair. They told me what I needed to do to fix mistakes and told me what I did really well. I began to watch tutorials and also spoke to beauticians about how I should go about doing certain things. In tenth grade I began to get better at sewing in weaves and I did a couple of other people's hair. I started getting alot of experience and I loved the feeling of doing hair. After watching more hair tutorials, I began to try different braiding techniques. At first I would braid the regular way but I saw other ways that had a better outcome. So I used my mannequins ( Aaliyah and my Mom) to test out my new braiding techniques and it worked and they loved how it came out. Not only did I teach myself to sew in weaves but I actually loved it and I put in alot of time. I know that when you love something or you want something, you should work hard to achieve your goals.

Class Response

So right now classes arent really doing anything. Bartoli's class is kinda boring to me. We are identifying fibers and science is not really my thing. Well now that I think about it I sound kind of crazy because I want to study psychology and this major revolves around science all the way. In class bartoli told me that it doesn't matter what we major in that we will still have to take two science's whether it is physics, forensics or chemistry. I HATE chemistry. I know hate is a strong word but i really dislike it because it consists of atoms and molecules and things like that. That is not appealing to me. I want to be a guidance counselor and work with teens to get them out of high school with flying colors and into college. I find this really interesting because I wonder how spooners job is or even Mr.Lin. It seems like a ton of work but i believe i am a responsible young lady and  will be able to handle it. I am also eager to learn about the brain and how it operates. I am convinced that I want to take up child psychology. Most people say it is really interesting and that I will love it but others say that it is very boring and not to waste my time. They also say that it will be very hard to find a job when I get out of college. I have alot of thinking to do and I am going to ask people who majored in psychology about their experience.

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In school so far it seems like we have been doing a lot of work lately. In Ms. Tomlin's class we are making a business and my group and I decided to make a restaurant. This project really showed me how much it takes to open a business and how much money it cost. I never realized that each business have to go through everything that we are doing in this project. Millions of dollars get spent for a businesses to thrive. I wonder how they get so much money to open up their own businesses and how long it takes to make a profit. In my project, since we are opening up a restaurant there are many things that need to be bought to have the business operating. Now as a customer I do not think I would ever complain about the prices that businesses sell their products for. Now I understand their reasoning for doing so. I don't think I would open my own business in the future. I really had my mind set on opening my own hair salon but this project is really making me change my mind. I am getting a little discouraged.In Bartoli class we were looking at fibers through microscopes and I hated it. I was so hard to find the little fibers. I don't think science would be the right major for me in college.

Questions

I feel like for my whole life I will always have questions that no one can answer for me. What if we all were living someone's dream and one day they just wake up. Would we all be gone just like that? No more more family ,no more friends, no more school! I know when I dream it seems so real so what if it is really true. One thing that I will question is people having to  go to school for so many years and still have to wait years to be successful? Attending elementary, middle school, high school, college and grad school will take up most of my life and I am not guaranteed to have a decent job that pays well in the long run. Most jobs require people to have many years of experience to receive a good pay. When I say good pay I do not mean to be rich, I mean to be independent. To be able to pay all the bills with no problem and still have money on the side to vacation every week if I wanted to.  I hate that we ( people going to school) will not know what life has stored for us until we get there. If we work so hard to live the life we want why can't we get it? Some people go to school for 10 years and still end up being unemployed.

My passion

One of my passions is knowing what my life is going to be like in the future. I really want to make sure it is perfect. I want to graduate high school on time, graduate college, be successful, get married and have a family. Now that I am at the start of the things that I want to accomplish I have to make sure  I do well now. If I succeed in school now then it will open up plenty doors for me in the future. I always wonder what it would be like to have a son or daughter of my own later in life because I am too young now to have any. I wonder who I will be married to as well. I hope he has a lot of money because I need to be able to be successful and my husband too. I also wonder what career I will have because I heard that in college you change your major 3 or more times until you find one that actually suits you. I am tired of changing my mind about what I want to do because it makes me feel as if I wasted my time looking into that field. I know it is going to be even more annoying in college because I am taking a course that I thought I liked. I know life gets frustrating often but overall I just want to be happy and enjoy my life, my career, and my family.