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In school so far it seems like we have been doing a lot of work lately. In Ms. Tomlin's class we are making a business and my group and I decided to make a restaurant. This project really showed me how much it takes to open a business and how much money it cost. I never realized that each business have to go through everything that we are doing in this project. Millions of dollars get spent for a businesses to thrive. I wonder how they get so much money to open up their own businesses and how long it takes to make a profit. In my project, since we are opening up a restaurant there are many things that need to be bought to have the business operating. Now as a customer I do not think I would ever complain about the prices that businesses sell their products for. Now I understand their reasoning for doing so. I don't think I would open my own business in the future. I really had my mind set on opening my own hair salon but this project is really making me change my mind. I am getting a little discouraged.In Bartoli class we were looking at fibers through microscopes and I hated it. I was so hard to find the little fibers. I don't think science would be the right major for me in college.

Questions

I feel like for my whole life I will always have questions that no one can answer for me. What if we all were living someone's dream and one day they just wake up. Would we all be gone just like that? No more more family ,no more friends, no more school! I know when I dream it seems so real so what if it is really true. One thing that I will question is people having to  go to school for so many years and still have to wait years to be successful? Attending elementary, middle school, high school, college and grad school will take up most of my life and I am not guaranteed to have a decent job that pays well in the long run. Most jobs require people to have many years of experience to receive a good pay. When I say good pay I do not mean to be rich, I mean to be independent. To be able to pay all the bills with no problem and still have money on the side to vacation every week if I wanted to.  I hate that we ( people going to school) will not know what life has stored for us until we get there. If we work so hard to live the life we want why can't we get it? Some people go to school for 10 years and still end up being unemployed.

My passion

One of my passions is knowing what my life is going to be like in the future. I really want to make sure it is perfect. I want to graduate high school on time, graduate college, be successful, get married and have a family. Now that I am at the start of the things that I want to accomplish I have to make sure  I do well now. If I succeed in school now then it will open up plenty doors for me in the future. I always wonder what it would be like to have a son or daughter of my own later in life because I am too young now to have any. I wonder who I will be married to as well. I hope he has a lot of money because I need to be able to be successful and my husband too. I also wonder what career I will have because I heard that in college you change your major 3 or more times until you find one that actually suits you. I am tired of changing my mind about what I want to do because it makes me feel as if I wasted my time looking into that field. I know it is going to be even more annoying in college because I am taking a course that I thought I liked. I know life gets frustrating often but overall I just want to be happy and enjoy my life, my career, and my family.

School -___-

Now that I am in the middle of my senior year I am beginning to like all of my classes. It is not as hard as it was in the beginning of the school year. I think that I just needed to adjust to the amount of work that I would get. I do not feel that any class challenges me anymore. Forensics is easy I don't really learn in that class I'm not sure why. Ms. Young's class is okay we are learning how cite text. She said that it will help us in college. Government is okay I have to finish my essay that is due tomorrow. I don't know why I always procrastinate but my work always gets done so it doesn't matter. I wonder how economics is going to be next semester.  Ms. Mingo class is easy I don't do much in there . I have accepted that my classes are  preparing me for college, which I know I am no where close to ready for.  From the stories I hear college is all about independence and there is no one there to make sure your work is done. I'm not ready to be on my own yet I wish in college I could still have my parents and my teachers helping me to get my work done. I want it to be just how high school is.

Who Really Knows Me?

I have been waiting for this free topic blog to come up but now that it is here I have nothing to talk about. I always talk about how annoying school is to me and about negative things but I think I should focus more on me for a change. I feel like only a hand full of people in TMA know my true personality. I think people in the school think that I'm quiet but I'm really not. I’m extra friendly and pretty much get along with everyone. I feel like those who really know me can say that I’m outgoing yet a little weird ( but not in the bad way). I would like to find a way to be comfortable acting the way I do at home in school because I act like two different people. I don't do it on purpose it just happens. This is my fourth year in this school and I have not spoken to everyone yet and that kind of bothers me a little. My goal for the end of the year is to have a conversation with majority of class so they can get to know me better. I don't want the people that I graduate with to see me 10 years later from now and don't greet me just because we never spoke. And for those reading my blog I think you should say hi next time you see me or make a conversation it will help me with my goal.

The News

I was watching the news this morning and I really do not like it. Yes it is informational and yes it does tell me the weather but it is so depressing. Its like every single time I do get to watch the news it is always about something bad that happened. If it is not about someone getting killed it would be about some disease spreading around or something. I really think that the news should speak about the good things more often. It sometimes looks like these news reporters are so used to talking about deaths that when they say it on tv its like they think its nothing. They would say something like only two people died like that is okay. When these bad things happen they do not only play it on the news once they play it over and over again and that gets very annoying. The little bit of good things that they play gets shown about one or two times then its back to all the bad things. Instead of showing all these crimes all the time influencing people to do more crimes, they should find a way to get the number of crimes to go down. I think they should schedule when they play the bad news. In the morning the good news should play to keep people in a happy mood before they leave the house then around 5 they can play the negative stuff.I know if it was that way I would watch the news more often.

Today I will be writing about what I learned in one of my other classes. A class I choose to write about is my college class. I enjoy going to that class because Ms.Young tries to make our senior year as easy as possible by helping up organizing our college things into different categories. I think this technique will definitely help me in the long run. She has worksheets that breaks down our top college choices and informs us about the tuition, activities, and contact information. She also makes sure we apply for our colleges on time and gives us information about several college fairs. This class helps me because as this point in life I'm confused as to what I'm suppose to be doing right now. Everything is overwhelming and going too fast. I have deadlines to meet back to back to back. I'm glad they put this college class in my schedule cause it definitely gives me time in school to focus on college. Another thing I like about this class is that guess speakers from college come to speak to us during this period and I get a chance to her about the college without leaving the school building. During these lectures by the colleges We get a chance to ask questions and get a feel of what costs will be coming out of our parents pockets. We also learn about different scholarships in this class. This is important to me because I know college is very expensive and I want to save as much money out my parents packets as possible. This class is very beneficial to me because it helps me prepare for college and keeps me on track.